the one with the resolution

and so i finally have some breathing room at work. it's been a month long, deadline-laden hellish April for me. As cliche as it sounds, im really hoping that May will be kinder.

if there's anything i missed with that's been happening in my life, its the quiet times when i can just sit in front of my journal and just pour out my thoughts. just write all my feelings and somehow at the end of page 3 or 4, feel a little better about myself.

a lot has changed since the last time i tried maintaining a journal. i now have a very demanding job, a family and whole set of hang ups to mope about. but you see, unlike before, im not only missing the chance to write down the hurt and the stress. im also missing the chance to leave a piece of my excitement the first time Seven called me mommy. or when Cesca said something really amazing for a 5 year old kid, i often wonder at what sorcery we must have been doing for her to grow up so bright.

i resolve to start doing this again. make something out of my anything. my life, unlike the people that i cyber stalk online, may not be full of exciting trips and dining outs, but i love it. i cherish it and at time when a dark cloud looms over my being, its the one thing that makes me smile and makes me realize that i am very lucky. i may not have everything but i still have something.