the one with the resolution

and so i finally have some breathing room at work. it's been a month long, deadline-laden hellish April for me. As cliche as it sounds, im really hoping that May will be kinder.

if there's anything i missed with that's been happening in my life, its the quiet times when i can just sit in front of my journal and just pour out my thoughts. just write all my feelings and somehow at the end of page 3 or 4, feel a little better about myself.

a lot has changed since the last time i tried maintaining a journal. i now have a very demanding job, a family and whole set of hang ups to mope about. but you see, unlike before, im not only missing the chance to write down the hurt and the stress. im also missing the chance to leave a piece of my excitement the first time Seven called me mommy. or when Cesca said something really amazing for a 5 year old kid, i often wonder at what sorcery we must have been doing for her to grow up so bright.

i resolve to start doing this again. make something out of my anything. my life, unlike the people that i cyber stalk online, may not be full of exciting trips and dining outs, but i love it. i cherish it and at time when a dark cloud looms over my being, its the one thing that makes me smile and makes me realize that i am very lucky. i may not have everything but i still have something.

the waiting game

A week ago, I was already 1 cm dilated and was advised that I could give birth anytime soon. Fast forward to yesterday where I found out I AM STILL 1 cm dilated.  Argghhh, the frustration.

Hence, the waiting game begins.

My 2 months maternity leave has already started and I am bored to death without things to do at home. Of course, I took the opportunity to cherish the times I get to spend with Cesca. Although I can no longer tend to her ALL her needs because of the baby on my tummy, I still see to it that I wake her up on mornings and get her ready for school.

And so I decided to start blogging again. A brand new page on my so called life. In a matter of days ( I hope!) well welcome our new angel and I'm pretty sure things will never be the same.

I bet things will be crazy at home once Seven come but I intend to keep my sanity intact by regularly blogging. I bet I'll need this outlet. I am beyond excited with my baby but I am also realistic enough to know that 2 kids under the age of 5 can be handful. So this is me keeping my fingers crossed. Good luck to you, Kati!

PS.On a side note, it felt good to be able to tweak with my oh-so-forgotten basic HTML skills and came up with my current layout.  Still needs improvement but not bad I say kahit walang praktis. :)